Finding A Love and Popularity

I cant stand being so lonely and silent. I need somebody.... That can be the angel of my heart. Every time I wish for love. I meet one but someday, it doesn't go on and end up deadly bad. Do I look like desperate? I wonder if there is a real girl who really care and love me. Somebody who is the water for a plant to grow. It says in this deep darkness, you will find a source of light. In this life of mine, there is a light, which I cant reach them. Its hiding from me and stay the position and sometime its move. Till today, I've been wondering... What is this light means?

A bloomed rose that I plug. I hurt my hand by the fence that I hand my hand. Is that how my love will be? That end with a bad ending? I wish if I could bend all the pain and have the perfect love.... Isn't it great if i we can trust the one who love us. Thing goes easy. I really don't get it yet. What is blank in me that make them pick other or decline me? In my religion patience is the first thing to build a true human. That you can say I am blank. Even if it for a moment or a while. Just give me your love to tell me the beauty of love. Even we never meet, if its good, share me your love..

The love thing driving me crazy after the dream that I had before. If i really meet her.... I wonder if "punch of my face will feel the pain"? God, I believe that God love every human. please give me a sign to end this title.... Everything is foist on me... How to release them?