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April 12, 2009

The lens Of Camera Never Lie

Mum usually told me... There is no need to waste money buying so much camera. One... is enough. I feel like I am thinking that moment while I'm on the air to fall down. I feel the wind, that make me deaf. That is sad pain when I heard... its a waste. I guess mum never know. What my dream is. What I know is... the lens of camera... never lie. Every snap I take... I create history for it. Someday, it changes. I always wanna owe a D-SLR camera. To be a professional Photographer. For the art of photograph and also for the name of talent.

"Every snap I took,
With my camera,
Every blood that release,
With the tears and pain,
For a thing that want,
For anything...

Let me tell everyone,
What is told and untold,
What is mean and sweet,
How is love and hate,
Only God will answer.....

Maybe your eyes doesn't release,
What I been doing for,
Maybe your pixel of eyes decrease as age increase,
However your eyes lie to you,
Lens of eyes told you,
Only the brain doesn't,
The picture that I took,

Bleeding priceless Love

A book I'm writing. Wonder why... I feel like I am the main character of the story. I feel like no one is listening and no one appreciate the exist of me. Strange. I write this story is about a guy that work for money. He speak the language that nobody could answer back. Bullets....

April 07, 2009

A Love Able Person That Never Connect to A Love Cable

Its funny... The title. A love able person that never been in a relationship before. Yeah that's me... Which i got no idea why... All I know is that its........ Sound stupid. I keep having in on my mind. Am I love able? Am I cool? Am I friendly? I ask almost every of my friend this idiot question... but I was fine asking it. They told me. "you such a liar! With that look. Man, even I am a guy I do wanna go out with you." then another tell me. "That sounds like the funniest joke or gag I know." If I am amazing as my friend told me... Can anyone prove that. I'm single and a failure in love. Not forever.

huh... now this is getting serious! A friend of mine keep on helping me with a girl which of course I know but it doesn't goes well. Does my love sounds like a joke? Why cant someone accept or believe my love? I can swear. I'll be there with you. Every time you want to. I can even prove how much I love you but strange. My friend usually tell me, "How can a guy that is cool in front of people or speaking in front of everyone got an idiot thing that you cant do... Saying i Love You? man, you suck." Well, that's normal I guess. For the whole moment in my life. With all my heart and sincerely. I never tell anyone I love her. I guess telling how much I love her is a screwdriver that might screw a friendship. That is a waste of our saliva if the words are not acceptable.... Man... God, This do really hard....

I keep waiting for my cellphone to ring every time as I fall in love to someone. But its never gonna happened like she even know my phone number and like anyone even know who is she. It sound like desperate. Every single song I heard telling different story and its... awesome. Wonderful and what else can I say? It also end up pretty bad...

Tell me my lord. Why me??? I mean... everything?

April 06, 2009

A Wish For A Friend

This is special for a friend of mine... Sorry for everything that I did wrong and thanks for everything. If you owe me, owe me your pleasure... If you read this early or late, happy early and late birthday then. If you got the heart of a friend. I bet you will get everything and I know its nothing. just word but nothing special. You don't need me to tell how special. People are reading this and everything is about you...

Let go back time... The first time we met... I forgot how it was. I do remember first time I am apart of your band. The first band I ever be listed with, Peer Pressure. That time I was feeling pretty awesome and happy. That's how our story as a great friend began. The leader break up and I replaced him. I decided to play drum. That I thank of everything and I decided to not being a drummer. I then a singer. It doesn't really matter about this band road. I know its doesn't go well but I don't care. We are 15. the future is always untold...

After few month the band story of us was mute. I put it the side and sharing my though of music. I really cant believe that you got incredible voice. I am happy there is a friend who really love this art. Even your parent control you on music. As fighter you keep it always. I always wanna learn guitar or anything. The cost stab my heart deep and my parent think it just a waste of time. That time, I learnt from you. the love of music that is whispering finally reborn and ready to be legend. The date of 9 is our birthday. I wish I got my perfect birthday but still.... Nothing...

As we turn 8Th grade. Something came by on me. The pain of my Jumper Knee cracking began. Days after day past. That stairs going to our class insult me. Making me worse. However, its a great lesson and guide line I ever sincerely know. Every step of this stair I took with my smile till I reach the end of it. There, I meet a small light that is full of smile and tears that I cant see from everyone. That class is the best class I been before. Every thing in this life takes step to the best. Just like this stairs. Who know what its end? Also not forget. You helped me to join a girl with me... its funny and weird too...

As 9Th grader. You are still holding the name of that class but I fall down a level. Wish it never happen. Things change. Not as usual. Strange, funny and weird s what I know. I hate it. Everything I post on blog I keep asking you to read. its took forever for you to get here. However, you read too. I kinda hate it to hear someone telling me i got grammar error or bad writing. That is the worst pain I felt. However, I never wanna give up. Writing problem I don't really care. How is the story by the way? I dint mean to tell why I hate. Just that the truth. I always wish to be a writer... Honestly telling a story of mine. Wish could help everyone.... If people judge it because the writer, that's the biggest loser I know. A legend don't born of rich or namely people, they come from anywhere. Today, I sharpen my grammar till its cool...

"The candle is light,
Singing the same song,
Wishing the best of you,
To have the best,
You deserve it.

Before that lighted candle is blow,
Make a wish that you wish to,
Before making any wish,
Think the other around you,
they are wishing for you.

As it twelve,
Its the day of your birthday,
As you are 15,
Its time to think far away,
As you begin to read,
Dont skip any of it,
As you end it here,
Dont need your regard,
The greatest gift i can get is your pleasure."