Sunday's Mystery

I'm happy and proud people called me to be a lucky person. Yeah and I agree with that but some certain things, I don't agree at all....

Love?

I'm not lucky at all.

I love a girl who didn't love me back.
I love a girl who already had the other.
I love a girl who I never talk with.
And I love a girl who's.
Already gone.

10Th grade seems to be great for me. New students, classmate and a lot new things. I'm getting a new start and boosting from far away to get close to be a great student. My level was not bad and not good. Which mean I'll be dead real soon if I stay that way. New lesson are just.. I don't know. The opening seems to be real good but I still didn't hits the middle lesson yet or whatever. The basic of course easy. Not yet the real subject that hits the title. Sounds stupid to think of.

Start thinking about my class. Not bad... Our class teacher the famous guy, Mr. Julian. Yeah. He was a great teacher and he made funny jokes which he didn't laugh at. Maybe I don't understand what he is trying to say but. Simply in person... He always stays cool.

I was the head president of the class. So I'll be wearing a black vest real soon when I received them. Start talking about new friends. Yeah, this new class makes me tighten up this friendship. And great thing is because Milya was just next door so its very easy to hang out together. She always lighten up the dark although sometimes... She's doing her homework and I was there disturb her. yeah.. she is so gonna kill me. However, so far school just great. not awesome but... not bad.

Homework is killing me. I felt really don't get it. Why is it hard and why is it just empty in my heart?

Or maybe?

She was close to me again.. Is that a sign?

Love is something I'm not good at. I'm very unlucky to feel love in me. All of my brother and sister already had their partner. And I'm still single... Never change from the status. I never felt lonely but lonely enough to be lonely.

Is there a way to eliminate this emptiness in me? I wanna say I can see her now but that's a lie. She wasn't here and she won't be here. Will its gonna be? or maybe... it was my feeling.

But it doesn't matter. Nobody is perfect right? I guess. I'm lost in this situation.

I hate to be known as lucky... As the matter of fact. it was listed down the truth. Which actually... I'm not. And may I say, is it because I'm snobbish? Arrogant? Or too swanky for someone. I wish I could be seen deeper and deeper. To be know as that guy in my heart. Liz.

Where Are You:
Morning at 5 am,
I was awake from a sleep,
I don't see anything in my sleep,
but what makes off from bed,
I lay there in bed and tears,
Coming down my face,
Till I fall asleep.

Wake up its already 10,
I can see the bright light,
On my room's window.
Looking outside at the street,
There are no car,
No people and nothing.
A silent morning.

Looking at the clock,
At the calendar stated its,
Sunday.
I push the calendar away from my view,
I hate Sunday,
What is wrong with me.

Outside I lay there behind my house,
Holding my camera trying to capture something,
But,
I was totally out of idea,
I can't think but,
I can't feel anything.
I'm heartless?

The sun almost sets and Sunday,
Gonna be a mystery for me,
What's going on?
Was it a good sign?
Or something bad is gonna happen,
I didn't expect for that,
But,
What is going on?

If there is a voice telling me,
Then please come and tell me,
Looking out at the window,
I can only see a bright light of nothing,
That reflects the view,
On my eyes.

Am I?
or is it?
Another vision?

I was vividly awake from sleep,
Or it doesn't make sense?

God.
Where have she been?
Is she...



Or not?